嘘臭い

It really is one heck of a day.
Don't really know why, there are some chains of events happens today.
But what do I get for the end of the day?
Nothing but more words that pierces the wary heart.

I'll start by the beginning of the day,
I took the most lousy train in all of Malaysia (go figure, K company),
I was supposed to gather with my friends,
After I entered I found that the train that I wanted is right in front of me,
But when I got there it's already gone,
So I have to wait ANOTHER 15minutes for the next train,
While my friends are already there at the gathering point.
That is not important I guess,
But the frustrating part is the passengers,
Sometimes I really feel like I'm in a country of savages,
Brute and no civilization,
The first few Chinese girls came in, and go to the back,
And guess what? They talk as if they gonna talk their lungs out.
Don't they feel they are disturbing the others?
I guess that can be tolerated, until another Malay woman shown up.
Despite there are many empty spaces, she have to stand beside the door of the train,
Ignoring the fact that there are still people entering and she's blocking them,
And she rather let THEM to stack up at the door and make jamming,
How civilized we are, proud to be a Malaysian, anyone?

Then after I arrived at the monorail, the same problem surface,
The only way to go up to the platform is via escalator,
And it is common sense that we do not block the way the people's coming up,
But they BLOCK it too, rather than moving closer to the crowd,
I know there's many people at the front, but can't you guys just stand more up front?

Well I guess the torture ends when I arrived,
Had some good times with friends,
Avatar turns out to be less suck than of my anticipation,
And we basically 'toured' the whole KL already,
Good fun and all,
And I thought the chain of events ended after we said goodbyes.

After reaching KL central,
Took the lousy train again,
But this time, I took the wrong train,
I don't think this is their fault,
But I took the train to another location,
Which I have to wait another half an hour for it to start moving,
And another 30minutes to finally reached the station to home,
Dad was still OKAY that time around,
We still have some chat which is considered rare to none,
I really thought that, it's not that bad yet.

I napped for awhile since I went out the whole day,
When I woke up like usual I just online and chatting with friends,
Then my sister asked me to borrow my web cam to her,
So I told her that mum is giving me permit to buy a new computer,
She said we can do it today since it's a public holiday,
She wanna go to survey or maybe even get herself a new laptop too.
I thought this plan is not bad, so I went down to tell my mum about it.
Then my dad suddenly starts to yell at me,
He never say any objections until now, he just yells,
He can't even provide some valid reasons, he just scream that
" YOU BETTER DON'T BUY IT I TELL YOU!"
Now what is the situation? Three kingdoms theory?
Me who only want a mid level desktop,
Mum that said 'okay',
And dad that suddenly said 'no'?
But really, I don't really suspect that dad will do something like that to me.
I don't really care how they broke promises, they always do,
But WHY DO YOU YELLED AT ME?
I'm just have the idea of buying,
You could have just tell me rationally,
WHY do you HAVE TO YELL?
Is there NO BETTER WAY?
Or I'm just some small kids that you think YELLING WILL SCARE ME?
NO, I'm crying now because not that I'm scared of you,
NOT that I'm disappointed that I can't get a desktop,
IS I COMPLETELY DISAPPOINTED IN YOU AND YOUR DAMN ROTTEN LIES.
I always thought that you are the one, although always kept silent,
The one that cares about me most even you even says a word,
BUT YOU JUST YELLED AT ME,
Why would you do that?
Don't you know when someone that you love most hurts you,
It is going to be FUCKING HURT AS HELL?
Can't you say it softly and tell me what's the problem?
I always loved you, I really do, but why,
You were the only person I look up to after grandma passed away,
I always look up to you for your ways of dealing things,
I REALLY LOVED YOU, but what are you doing to me?
How can I still love you?
Where are the only hope that I still clings into?
The only light that I stupidly thought it's my safe haven?
At least where I can rest peacefully because you're the pillar to this home?
Why of all the people, have to be you?