5 days before apocalypse

Have been lazy nowadays, I kept sleeping the whole day off even though next week is the beginning of my examinations, maybe I should put some efforts into it but, I only feel nervous but no urges at all to finally revise, what has made me this way?

Anyway, there's quite a lot of things happened.
I was talking about a friend from previous post right?
I guess I'm really a worst friend, I found out I understand nothing after all,
His feelings, his actions,
But why do I feel it that way now?
Maybe, I have never got used to,
What they called 'attached' to someone else, no perv minds he's a guy. *laugh*
When you attached to them you starts to notice every single little things around he/she,
Which you never notices them before, or doesn't even care at the first place.
How do I feel this way, well, I don't really know,
Maybe I want to find out more about him?
But I know he's the kind of guy that keep everything inside,
I knew all along, but I still want to try exploring,
Maybe that is why I'm not really a understanding friend?

Now let's talk about girls.
Well, apparently there's 2 girls among my secondary school friends had misunderstanding between them, their relationship had frozen up.
I think I roughly know what's going on,
And I guess I'm not really in the place for consult these two,
But if you two actually read this until here, can you hear me out?
Yes, there have been some misunderstanding, and maybe you guys did threw in some bitter words that are hard to chew,
But you know?
The whole quarrel thing can only be started by same type of people?
Because different type of people will never conflict with each other and burn,
Like arguing with ice, like throwing ice to fire, it is fruitless.


凄く寂しい...
I wonder sometimes, are there even hope for someone like me?